Realisations in deep

I've been a way a weekend and it feels like an eternity. Its funny how life can change in three days. I've realised that something was broken & that it needs to be fixed. If you asked me what it was I couldn't tell you. I've never looked at camps as turning points before but this one certainly has been.

The catch in your voice says it all, it really is all about the people I hope everyone's life is still intact. I am floating half a meter above the ground. Sometimes the best thing in the world is time out from real life. I have a protective bubble right now. Why do we never tell people how much we care about them? My friends are the only things that keep me sane in this world yet very few of them know how much they mean to me. I could blather on about societal pressures etc.. but thats all bullshit. I remember once screaming at my father in a fit of anger that our culture breeds lunatics, (I am indian). Perhaps what I really meant was emotional cripples. People who are so torn especially in this cultural environment between who they are and who they want/wish/are expected to be that they completely lose all sense of self.

I have to wonder about priorities. Is education important beyond all else? Good marks at what cost? I love many things about my culture but sometomes I think it is so fucked up.

Rie all I want to say to you is that I am sorry. I hope you understand what I mean, maybe you don't but I am not going to explain any more than that.