Caligula

Oh look I updated, fancy that.

I'm going to malaysia in june. For once I'm looking forward to it. It'll be nice to escape this country for a while. For someone that is in love with the city she lives in that says a lot. Its not Auckland I feel like escaping from though.

It doesn't seem right to look you in the eye, let all the things you mean to me come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time, tell you why, I say its infintitely true...

*sigh* I'm quoting Bic Runga. Its fitting though.

When did I get so stupid?

Stupid question actually.

I think I need people to need me. No thats a lie, I need people. I am tired of needing people. I am tired of missing people. Especially the ones who are still in my life. Oooh look at me whinge. I feel like smacking myself over the head and telling myself to harden up.

Someone please do that for me.

Blogging makes me feel like a prat. Thats what the last two posts have been about yet I can't tear myself away. I got fanmail for my tearaway article. Since its the holidays I am going to do an experiment in sleep deprivation just because I can, and being sleep free = pleasantly numb, better than alcohol.

Don't mind me, I get like this sometimes.